tender areas

its hurtful when
you walk past ur dad in public,bumping into him
but both not acknowledging each other.
it doesnt bother me as much,in a way i have expected this
moment but whats most hurtful is when
the little sister u thought u had,chose to shut you away.

sometimes i can imagine her difficulties,living
with someone as complicated as my dad,but
part of me wishes she will be independant enough to
make her own life and not let him dictated it. (which he oh so enjoys)


maybe one day,one fine day,i will be able to actually sit down
and have coffee with my sister,with her feeling content with life too.


as i have always said,life is less complicated with him not in it.